; yes true . im trying my hard to forget you from my life . *opposite* .
seriously , u just cant get off from my mind . idk what to do already .
k , hello .
start from yesterday huh ?
k , yesterday was NOT okay .
early in morning , i start my day with crying .
for the whole math lessons was crying all the way actually ;
till there's like one big puddle on my table .
haish . ):
when changing period to Music ,
tried very hard to stop crying cause i dowan other people can see my "so-soredeyes"
ohya , about my prediction whether he surely not becoming on monday is sooo true ok ?
haha , see , im good . (:
cheyy . heh .
so , back to topic , after Music was Recess .
these two days , which is yesterday and today didnt even went for recess like i used to those other back time days . ):
hmm , .
want to know why , because i have no mood to .
k , then that time ( yesterday ) , i asked Yan Ni to buy for me something .
*shhhsss*
haha .
quickly ate it as soon as possible .
heh (:
gd girl right ?
joking );
ohman , typing about the gd girl thing makes me cry again )):
*sobs*
cause , he told me once that im not a good girl ,
with his jokes when he play-play say that im not a gd girl .
i really miss those times where we jokes around tgther . .
*argh , my tears kept on flowing out from my eyes .
i really hope it will stops soon as i dowan till i sleep , i still kept on crying ,
and tmrow , you all will see my swollen eyes . -.-
k , back to topic again . -.-
end recess time ,
it was DNT .
was quite boring .
and also ,
MY PHONE GOT CONFISCATED BY TEACHER !
and this is my FIRST time in my entire life of secondary lifes .
haish .
but thankfully , i got it back during end of lessons .
haha .
so , after Dnt was science .
that period was quite okay though .
then after all that went home .
at home , as per normal .
cried in my room again ,
thinking all about those problems .
so , today ,
went veryvery early to school .
i reached school like 6.58pm like that .
heh (:
then , went to band room .
tried my hard not to think about it ,
and i made it ok ?
im proud of myself .
but !
during math lessons again just now ,
which is first - two periods ,
i start my day again with crying . .
this is because of something ok ?
and zames saw im crying and was like kecoh .
haish . mulut tak leh tutup btul ah tu budak .
hmm , then after maths , went AVA room to watch movie .
my heart wasnt on that video actually .
was all the way thinking about the problem .
hmm .
so , then , it was recess .
like i told before , i didnt went for recess .
was in class with some of my classmates .
then , something happens .
dowan mention it .
k , very lazy to talk about the other period cause all of it was bo-ring .
today , 1.30 can go home already .
went home for awhile , then went to school again cause have band and prefect meeting .
but i didnt played during band cause was outside with hayati as she's sick .
then blahblahblah ,
as per normal , thinking about it again .
hmm , now i realized that i cannot be alone cause i will start thinking about it again and again that will make me cry . hmm , so much problems these days . i hope to finish the problem as soon as possible .
cause i dowan i go KL with the sadness and i will miss someone .
haish .
now , my only wish that he would message me / or call / or whatsoever .
i downa lose contact with him .
cause i dont know why i have this feeling that im missing him day by day when he didnt msg me / or call .
hmm , seriously , i just need him to msg / call , and thats it .
i would surely concentrate during class and wont be very emo till i do something very stupid .
*sobs*
i wanna cry again .
but i know , i need to be strong .
like seriously , i really need to .
k , gtg .
kbye . ):
