; k , seriously now im very confused about my feelings . maybe it has break into pieces already . ):
heyy .
k , so just came back from my uncle house as have some kenduri and birthday party .
had to come today cause on 17th i cant send him to airport as he's going for umrah .
Selamat pergi dan Selamat kembali Ayah Gi , Cik Misah , Ibu , Bapak , Ayah ngah and Mama .
doa kan nur disana . Nur juga akan doakan supaya semuanya sihat2 di sana .
Amin .
k , so , now im all alone at home cause , my dad , mom , 1st brother and 4th brother still there ( at my uncle house)
for my 2nd and 3rd brother they still working so havent come back home yet .
faster come back home eh y'all .
im really not feeling well now .
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ok , so back to story .
went there at 11 something , reached there played with my anak sedara .
they very cute leh .
haha .
then we were asked to eat .
when i was eating , suddenly , my cousin came to me and say
"dont dreaming when you eating"
i was like how you know sia im dreaming .
so , i asked my little cousin who were eating with me that time whether do i look really sad ?
then she say , "yah , your face look like someone just break up with his/her boy/girl-friend ."
hmm , now i know ,
people can see whether they are sad or happy by looking at the person face although the person tried to hide it .
yeah , my cousin is totally true .
he knows when i was dreaming sia .
and he also knows when i was so called "being broke up by my boyfriend" ,
but actually i didnt even broke up as i am single .
but , im sad because of something else .
hmm .
sad-sad .
i really hope he would msg me or call me although he's busy now .
at least just msg/call me telling me about he busy now or not .
k , seriously .
if tomorrow he still havent call me or msg me ,
i will tell myself to just forget him forever .
seriously .
I WILL DO IT .
sedih y'know when he do like this .
dh dua hari tkde dengar khabar die .
on friday when i msg him , he only answer one letter .
one letter y'know ?!
containing 2 letters which is
"DH" ?!
ergh . geram seyy .
after that i msg him trus tkde reply .
bgus sngt2 .
haish . malas nak ckp pasal die .
guys , please remember for me , if tmrow he still havent msg or call me ,
help me to remind myself to just forget about him .
useless sia if waiting for him whereas he is happy with his life .
and to my friends , if i very emo tomorrow ,
you guys should know why an i like that .
k ?
sorry if tmrow my attitude like shit ok ?
i seriously very pissed off .
k , back to story again .
throughout the kenduri ,
like seriously ,
i was very emo y'know ?
kept thinking about him .
his face always appear on my mind .
when i was eating , his face is on the rice im eating .
when i was talking to my cousin ,
my cousin face change to his face .
SERIOUSLY SIA .
im telling the truth .
whatever i do , his face will appear .
idk why .
hmm .
ohya , i remembered talking to my cousin just now about tudung ( malay ladies wear on their head)
im starting to wear tudung wherever i go .
im starting to be good girl already .
my cousin also give advise to me ,
"dont listen to your friends when you go out with them and you wear tudung and they will comment you by saying
" chey , nak step budak alim sey "
just ignore them and reply to them " thanks "
if what they say hurts your feelings ,
just tell them
" what's your problem , you not Islam meh ? your mother dont wear tudung isit ?
my problem ah if i want to wear or not .
haha . quite harsh right .
but who cares .
this is for the malays when they say that to me .
i told my cousin many of the malays always say that ,
some of my chinese friends respect when they see us wearing tudung , but for the malays ,
they are Islam too , why dont they respect us when we wearing tudung sia .
correct or not ?
so , to people out there ,
respect people for who they are .
if they want to wear tudung or not ,
their problem .
you dont need to say negatives comments ok ?
haish .
k , gtg now ,
ohya , tmrow starts school already .
my heart tell me that surely he wont be coming tmrow to school .
mesti bnyk alasan die bagi kat parents die untuk tak gy skulah .
* this is only what my feelings tell me ok ?
not the truth .
idontknow whether he coming or not to school tmrow .
hmm ,
kbye .
