weekends .

 Hello (:

Today , saturday . Boring . . T-T

k , so , 

yesterday was not fun k .

its seriously looks diferent from the other day . 

had lessons per normal during class . 

had attire check .

had 'some' fun during CCA .

i've got new junior and got to teach him . 

and , went home then . 

so , at home , Tawfik was home alone . . My mom went hospital to visit my uncle .

pity him .

so , at home , watch movie " LOVE " very sad story .

at 8.00 , went to bath and decided to sleep .

That time i cried . 

i remembered about someone that makes me cry .

He was yeah , so called special in my heart last time , but then , recently , day by day ; i dont know why , but he's attitude looks different . 

he also had said something that really breaks my heart .

actually , he sometimes said nasty words to me , playplay insults me and etc . but this time when he told people about something that seriously makes me sad , i seriously feel like crying that moment . 

but i told myself to be strong . 

i tried to forget about what he says , but it just make me cry again and again when i recall what he says .

no one know about this thing . 

Only me .

Yes , ME ! 

maybe some of you think it could be Danial . But no , its not him . I am so thankful to god for making me and him closer than before . . We have been understanding each other now and then .

maybe , for all the conflicts we've been through , it is to teach us to learn something such as to care , love , understand , and trusts each other more . 

for about the guy , i dont know how i feel towards you as my friend anymore .

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS .

including you .

but , now , i kept on thinking about what you said and it makes me think negative towards you . :(

why have you become like this .

and now , im crying again .

i cant bear with it ! 

i just want to forget what you say , but when i saw you , i saw your friends , 

ergghh . . i would just again remember about it .. .

Like Zulaikha said , everyone changed .

yes , people do change . they may changed because of someone . 

i dont know whether im one of them , but , if you think im one of it , its all because if him . 

you may see me laughing , smiling , but actually im crying behind all of you . 

i just want to say sorry to all of you .

im now feeling soo downn .

*To Zulaikha , awak jangan tak makan taww . nanti awk pengsan depan kite , sape susah , kite jugak .

kite bukan nye larat nak angkat awak . hmm , tapi kalau kite tak larat , kite nanti akan terus carik Hazeeq untuk angkat awak k ? mesti awak terus bangun nyer . HEHE :D

Hi`

 Hi . 

okay . just saying out all my pain-ness in my heart i've been through this whole month .

I HATE YOU DECEMBER ! 

ok . so , i think the only way i can say all this is in this blog and my personal diary . 

so , who read my blog here will be the only ones who will know it .

k , my relationships between me and Dan is sooo going to be over . i really dont know what to do . i think in all relationships must have understanding with each other .

but in my relationship , theres NONE . he starting to be not understanding about my situation right now .

i've been going to school everyday cause have some activities going on and you there thought i've been running away from the problems .
everyday , our feelings had been thorning apart .

I once think that the only way is just to break up . but , my heart says something .

i know that i still love him , but what is the used of together when we dont trust each other , no patience , no understanding , no caring or whatsoever . 

we have been 9 months together and its going to 10 months in 6 days time .

i really dont know what is the way out of this problem .

i heard people say that breaking up is not one of the good way to deal with problems . 

i know that but ....... maybe for mine , breaking up is the only way to deal with it . 

i really cant bare with it .

since the previous post  ( if you all doesnt know what 's happening , then , read it . )

that day was the last time i msg or call with him until today .

i also cant blame him if he msg me and i didnt reply cause it not his fault , its mine as i havent top up my prepaid yet .

as for you guys info . i have been MIA - ing . i didnt even contact with anyone except for the ones who i met in school for dance practice or band .

so sorry to you guys if you msg or call me but i didnt reply or answer it .
anw , i will be away on 21st till 23rd as i have camp .
so , maybe this is my last post till someday .

ps/:

HAPPY BELATED 5 MONTHSARY FOR ZULAIKHA AND HIDAYAH ! 

HAHAHAHA ! 

LAST LONG JYEAHH !!

NYAHAHAHHAHAHAH ! ^.^

kbye .

Heylooo ! :DD

:/ i mintak paisey cause tk bilang you about just now .

seriously sorryy . :[

 k , today as normal went for dance rehearsal .

then at 12 went to meet hayati at the bus stop .

saw sherry in the bus .

then , when hayati reached already , decide to walked to cck park . 

reached there at around 12++ , 

only Trevor and  Andy .

so played with them . 

at around 0140 , hayati went home . 

actually wanted to sent her , but because she took bike with trevor , i just wait for trevor at the bus stop .

then , while waiting , sophia , firman and raihan came . 

walked back to cck park again with them . 

play trevor's bike until i fall . =.=

walao . pain sia my hand .

then , the rest came ,

which is the zames and the rest .

lazy to type .

okayy .

after awhile , they played water bomb .

while yan ni and i sit one corner and do something else .

only yan ni and i know .

heehee . 

SHHHSSS ! :/

then , actually wants to go home but then , felt boring so just wait there .

so , yan ni and i went to them and 

YAN NI GOT WET BY KELVIN ! 

HAHA !

Im actually not even wet , 

but just because of FIRMAN ( LOSER )

i got a bit wet .

haha .

k ,

so at 4oclock ,

went home , but first went lot 1 to buy milo . saw khairul with his friend .

KECOH .

after that , went toilet for awhile ,

saw , Alfian :/

sorry . =.=

went home while messaging with Danial .

i mintak paisey k cause tak bilang u .

bukan i tak nak bilang , cuma i dont have the time .

lagipun i kluar dgn classmates i bukan dgn laki lain pun kn .

so , u tak payah lahh nak cemburu k .

betul - betul mintak paisey ahh pasal tadi .

i tahu i salah .

sorry k ?

klu u tak nak angkat kol(s) i , 

i tak kisah , but just reply my msg(s) k .

please , i mintak paisey sngt - sngt .

k ,

nothing to say already .

bye .